my heart really die ady..

no matter how good i treat him....he stil the same to me...he dont love me anymore, this is the truth..im stupid to wait him....im stupid to love him stil.....everything he said to me in the past, im brainless to beliv...
im awake now...i know what shd i do....rather than everyday crying,i better forget him.. thinking his good will make me more suffer...he is not dat good only....at least he treat me very bad..
if he really, he wont hurt me again and again...even wana break vf me, oso dont need to hurt me like dis...
after break up, cant even care me a bit more like a fren? i wan to put down him but i cant ma. u tot letting go a ppl that u love deeply so easy? but he nvr care of this. he just know that, he wan to make me die heart on him, wan to hurt me more so that i can forget him.like this, he will be free from me, i wont find him...

he said this is a better way for us..but it is a better for himself..last time im too stupid... oways think for him..even he hurt me oso i said he is good, cos he wan hurt me now rather than hurt me more in future...thinking like dis only will make me suffer. every post i wrote here about him, i was writting them with tears...but this post..im not anymore..
cos i know..i shd love myself more than anyone in the world..crying for him? y i wan make myself suffer? few more days..maybe i will see a photo he took with his new gf? maybe few more yrs i will reciv his invitation to his wedding? what for i wait for him? wait for disappointed? wait for more hurt?

last time i keep telling myself he is a very good guy. no he is not!!!! he is more cruel than any of my ex bf....now even my ex bf oso wil care bout me when i break vf him...but he wont!!!
he nothing to me!i wont cry for him anymore.he wan me not to disturb him ma..ok... i stay away from him lo...u tot i like to stick vf u?
im really regret to tell u that u r a good guy..sorry to say that... i keep back all my words. u r a bad guy...sorry to let u accept this reality.
i wont wait u anymore...my love to u oso gone. everything changed...we game over!
i reciv the msg from my mum, she told me not to reciv the call from indonesian number, cos in newspaper really got ppl die for it after reciv the call...i juz worry all my frens..im not only send the msg to u, i sent to all my frens too...
i duno that u were sleeping..cos i know u oways reciv call in the midnite, no matter who call u. and u r blur ppl, how i know u will reciv anot? even those this is ridiculious, but better beliv it than not.i juz dun1 u to be hurt by this kind of stupid call.but u said i wake u up in the midnite.. like im annoying u....
i juz not hope that anyone in my life, no matter important anot, to leave me like dis... i appreciate everyone in my life, no matter is fren or ex bf...this is juz a caring from a fren. but u tot i wan to annoy u from ur sweet dream..
im really........totally change view to u...u r not the ppl i know in the past. ya u are right, everything changed, cos u totally changed...
if u got anything happen, i swear i wont cry for u, i wont pity u...cos i have told u to be careful.. u dun1 to listen..u dun1 me to care u ma...thats ur problem....
im ok with it..in my life, got u anot im not really will realise it anymore. u die or disappear oso non of my business....
im a person whom heart very soft, u shd know that..u made me become like dis, angryu so much...u shd know what did u do to me...i nvr angry a ppl so much de. even my 1st love played me, he got another gal but stil get me as his gf, oso i can forgive him....and be fren with him.. we stil can be fren...
u? i duno.....cos u urself not appreciate me even as a fren...i care u as fren, u treat me like what??u ask urself!
if u stil got heart....u shd know what to do...being fren stil possible if u give me a call..and explain.. or....i will angry u forever.