i gave my 1st time to my aunty wynki o!!

what do u think bout that 1st time? not dirty thingy okie?

my 1st time means..

baking cake~wohaha...

this is our target of cake.

but we cant find the stwedded pear as the ingredient..so we change our mind and bake another cake by self.lol.

now this is all our ingredients that we bought.

got flour,eggs,butter,milk,sugar,and some simple decorarion of cake.

we also have the tools of baking cake..

seems like we so pro ar!! haha...

nah...

1st step:

weight the sugar and flour...all 8 0z.

then put in a bowl separately.

the sugar juz put aside.

for the flour, we must make it into more tiny.

cos when u bought the flour, it wil juz like some wil stick together..not nice.making it more tiny wil let the cake become more smooth and delicious... (aunty wynki teach me geh)haha...

then..weight the butter also..same as the b4...8 oz also.

put all the butter than weighted in to a very big bowl..

as big as able, cos scare later mix everything inside it wil be not enough.

then add in all the 8 oz sugar that have been weighted juz now into the butter.and mix it.

stir it until the mixture of sugar and butter mix balancely.

while im stiring the mixture of butter and sugar, anuty wynki ady prepared the 4 eggs.hehe.. so nice the eggs..

see...aunty wynki stiring the eggs...until all of it become mix together.

yo...my mixture of butter ans sugar almost done d..such a hard work ar!! the butter so hard, then have to stir it until all become half liquid and mix balancely with sugar..

then add in the flour slowly and stir it. stir the mixture balancely...

this process continued for around 2hrs++

stir til our hand also tired lol.

luckily both of us stir it by turn.

when we done the mixture..then we added in the ground almonds...not too much..only a bit cos if add in too much wil spoilt the taste of cake. stir it after added.

yeah...now put it into the mould of cake....





















and put it into the micro oven..hehe...
put around 1 hr..








after 1 hr it become the colour like dis o!!!







DENG!!!
after decoration...it become like dis lo~~


do u know whats the meaning of the double "S"?
1 "S" stand for me,Siewpeiwen,another "S" stand for wynki Sampuiyee.
YEAH!!! our 1st memory~

what i've done

hehe.....
2day staying at home..too boring...
see what i've done now?
i made such a drink....delicious o!!
wan to learn?
then try it.

this is the boiled longan drink.

juz put in the dry longan and add in water in a bowl..then boil it.

after that..take off all the dry longan..we juz wan the water o..

put the longan drink into the fridge til this drink become cold.

take it out, and add in the sliced jelly cincau.

now,add in the HL pure milk

look at the colour of the drink.

dont be too much milk to cover the taste of longan.
muz keep trying the taste of the drink when adding the milk.
stop adding when u feel that it is nice enough.
this is depends on personal taste.
normally u can juz put the milk as much as the same with the longan drink.

then...hehe...u can serve it ady..
but if u wan it to be more nice..
juz put it back into the fridge so that the taste of milk and cincau wil be more stressed out.

TA...DA....!!!

i served it in such a nice glass..
matching with my nice dining room..
^^ drink it in a suitable environment wil be more delicious..
taste it slowly..
believe it?

now im gonna drink it..haha...

oh too nice for me...!

i cant drink slowly...

haha..

i finished it ady...

do u want one?

try it yourself ya!

so happy that i found a job from a tuition centre..

actually it's a centre to take care of children and teach them something when their parents not free

i not yet know about the salary and all the things about this job

but im juz taking it as a partime job

so salary if over 400 or 500 a month that would be enough for me

and i think i could work everyday for few hours

then my salary will be higher i think

everything is juz "i wish" lol

hope that it would be like i think

2molo im going to meet the person inchanrge and talk about everything of it

she said to me, she only now collecting students

if she got class then i can take the job

so...everybody!!come on pray for me ya!

gimme the luck to get this job..

hopes everything go smooth..then after i earn money..

hehe the 1st thing i do is...

give parents money

then present my best fren a dress not more than rm40, as i promised

hehe..then i keep my money in bank all

so that i couls go for my next travel lu~~

i like shopping!!!!!

i wan to be like in th pic..shopping..buying...

有你真好。。

这几个星期的日子真的好难过哦！

每天都把自己弄得好累好累的

就是不要让自己有时间再去想无谓的事情

只要一把时间空下来，我的眼泪就不停的落下了

我知道没有人可以帮我的

可是我没有你们想象中的坚强啊！

从小到大，每个人都说说我看起来很坚强的

所以就算我有事也一定可以解决

可是我每次有事都躲在房里哭，谁知道？

我真的受不起这种对我的看法了

因为当朋友对我说我很坚强，可以没事的

我是为了不想让他们担心，所以假装没事

这样的我，夜里只会哭得更伤

还好我都有我最好的朋友

她知道我有多么的伤，在我需要人陪时呆在我身边

让我有个依靠，不再是孤独一个人的哭了

这个月里几乎每天我都哭

眼睛好像开始痛了，很不舒服哦！

所以我才选择放弃等待他，让自己好过一点

我可不想为了他连眼睛都瞎了

我每天为他哭为他着想，他有为我想吗？

如果他还关心我，根本就不会这样对我啊

我不放过他，就不能够放过我自己

我不祝福他快乐，但我要祝福自己快乐啊！

没有他，我的生活可以一样的过，可是不会比有他时快乐

可能这是我所遗憾的吧！

希望，快乐会回到我的身边。。

谢谢你我的好朋友。。虽然你陪我，没有比他带给我的更快乐

但你给我的伤害，也没有比他给的更伤

我这辈子最庆幸的，就是认识你这个好朋友了

i nvr meant to curse or hate u...

yesterday i was just too angry with u..cos i sent the msg to every fren that i care..i care u as fren so i sent to u...how i know u sleep so early that day?

but..cant beliv...u scold me wake u up in the midnght...
im just......so angry with myself..i shd not send u msg anymore..even a caring from a fren de msg oso not tot send to u de.
im regret lo...sorry to wake u up from ur sweet dream.
after break up, i know ur feeling to me gone ady..now even hate me cos im annoying ur life.
i know ar..receiving my msg is a kind of suffer in your life. cos u duno what to say to em except sorry ma....
and i duno what for u misscall me in this early morning 6am...
revenge me to let me wake up super early o?
aikzz...
i duno why we would become like dis....cant be couple...even fren oso cant be..some more want to hate each other....dun1 find each other...even need to lost contact...
really sad to lost a fren in my life....
i juz wish u to be happy oways la..maybe u really more happy without me de.
im not a homefly that making ppl hatred...i oso dun1 to let u hate me...
better i leave forever..if not i oso wil hate myself i think.

my heart really die ady..

no matter how good i treat him....he stil the same to me...he dont love me anymore, this is the truth..im stupid to wait him....im stupid to love him stil.....everything he said to me in the past, im brainless to beliv...
im awake now...i know what shd i do....rather than everyday crying,i better forget him.. thinking his good will make me more suffer...he is not dat good only....at least he treat me very bad..
if he really, he wont hurt me again and again...even wana break vf me, oso dont need to hurt me like dis...
after break up, cant even care me a bit more like a fren? i wan to put down him but i cant ma. u tot letting go a ppl that u love deeply so easy? but he nvr care of this. he just know that, he wan to make me die heart on him, wan to hurt me more so that i can forget him.like this, he will be free from me, i wont find him...

he said this is a better way for us..but it is a better for himself..last time im too stupid... oways think for him..even he hurt me oso i said he is good, cos he wan hurt me now rather than hurt me more in future...thinking like dis only will make me suffer. every post i wrote here about him, i was writting them with tears...but this post..im not anymore..
cos i know..i shd love myself more than anyone in the world..crying for him? y i wan make myself suffer? few more days..maybe i will see a photo he took with his new gf? maybe few more yrs i will reciv his invitation to his wedding? what for i wait for him? wait for disappointed? wait for more hurt?

last time i keep telling myself he is a very good guy. no he is not!!!! he is more cruel than any of my ex bf....now even my ex bf oso wil care bout me when i break vf him...but he wont!!!
he nothing to me!i wont cry for him anymore.he wan me not to disturb him ma..ok... i stay away from him lo...u tot i like to stick vf u?
im really regret to tell u that u r a good guy..sorry to say that... i keep back all my words. u r a bad guy...sorry to let u accept this reality.
i wont wait u anymore...my love to u oso gone. everything changed...we game over!
i reciv the msg from my mum, she told me not to reciv the call from indonesian number, cos in newspaper really got ppl die for it after reciv the call...i juz worry all my frens..im not only send the msg to u, i sent to all my frens too...
i duno that u were sleeping..cos i know u oways reciv call in the midnite, no matter who call u. and u r blur ppl, how i know u will reciv anot? even those this is ridiculious, but better beliv it than not.i juz dun1 u to be hurt by this kind of stupid call.but u said i wake u up in the midnite.. like im annoying u....
i juz not hope that anyone in my life, no matter important anot, to leave me like dis... i appreciate everyone in my life, no matter is fren or ex bf...this is juz a caring from a fren. but u tot i wan to annoy u from ur sweet dream..
im really........totally change view to u...u r not the ppl i know in the past. ya u are right, everything changed, cos u totally changed...
if u got anything happen, i swear i wont cry for u, i wont pity u...cos i have told u to be careful.. u dun1 to listen..u dun1 me to care u ma...thats ur problem....
im ok with it..in my life, got u anot im not really will realise it anymore. u die or disappear oso non of my business....
im a person whom heart very soft, u shd know that..u made me become like dis, angryu so much...u shd know what did u do to me...i nvr angry a ppl so much de. even my 1st love played me, he got another gal but stil get me as his gf, oso i can forgive him....and be fren with him.. we stil can be fren...
u? i duno.....cos u urself not appreciate me even as a fren...i care u as fren, u treat me like what??u ask urself!
if u stil got heart....u shd know what to do...being fren stil possible if u give me a call..and explain.. or....i will angry u forever.

什么是爱情?

你说你以前说你爱我的时候,你真的是爱我的,你没有说谎,只是现在不同了,对我的感觉没了..对我的爱消失了...那你懂什么是爱吗?
如果感觉来得快去得快,那不是爱,是喜欢..你只是喜欢和我在一起的感觉...觉得很甜蜜,很快乐...
当这种甜蜜快乐的日子没了...你就不再喜欢和我在一起的感觉了...
我们当初之所以会在一起,是因为和对方相处得很快乐了,觉得很甜蜜...所以你认为你爱上了我,不能失去我...其实你并没有爱我,你只是喜欢和我一起的感觉..你说你怕失去我,是因为你不想失去这种快乐甜蜜的日子.

爱一个人,不是喜欢那种和他一起的感觉罢了..不是有感觉就一起,没有感觉就分开的.
当你真正爱上一个人,不管之间发生了什么事,都不会分开..不管对方做错什么都会原谅..
爱一个人是会关心对方,了解对方...感觉,只是让你寻找你另一半的方向感..找到以后,就要相处,互相迁就..没有一对情侣,天生是适合对方的生活的.都需要互相去迁就..

如果你对一个人的感觉来得快去得快,那就别对他说,你以前说爱他是真的,因为连你自己都不知道你不是爱他,只是喜欢和他一起的感觉.

当你真正会去关心一个人,懂得为他想,想要和他一起一辈子,每做一件事都考虑到对方,做的每一个决定都是关于着你们的未来..在你们之间的不只是感觉的存在,而是不管发生什么事,就算一起的生活很辛苦,都可以一起挨过去..就算没有每天的甜蜜,但都可以每天的想念对方..就算见面出街没有拖着手抱着走...也都觉得和对方一起很快乐,很幸福...那才是爱.....

我和你的开始,就是因为甜蜜和快乐....你对我,只是喜欢的感觉...在一起久了,你觉得我们不再每天甜言蜜语了,你对我的感觉就没了...
可是我对你的...是爱..我为我们的未来在铺路..就算我不找你,却都很想念你..你每天工作很累,回到家我都想让你多休息,所以想念也都不敢找你...我知道你不喜欢KL的生活,我可以在我念完书后去PG找你..就算要我一个人在那里生活,自己养自己,我都不怕..因为我有你就够了..
就算我们之间的甜蜜少了,我对你的爱都没有变过...因为我不只是喜欢和你在一起的感觉...我是用心去爱你....爱你的所有.....不是纯粹喜欢和你在一起而已...
我不知道你能了解我对你说的多少...或许你坚持的说你没骗我..你真的爱过我....
可是我可以确定的说...你只是喜欢过我,不是爱.
可是我还是会很期待,你重新去定义我,重新认识我....让我们之间...有着正常的交往...从朋友,开始了解,开始关心....然后开始互相需要...开始爱上我...我很期待有这一天...
不要总是说..要我寻找我自己的幸福...要我过以后都没有你的生活...因为你不会再爱我..
因为你从来没有爱过我..你当然不会"再"爱我啊..很希望......当你真的懂得什么是爱时...我会是你选择的对象....
请你永远都要记得,你每做一件事,都有个人在默默的支持你..你伤心失望时,有个人等着你打电话向她诉苦..你开心时有个人等着你和她分享.....你需要人陪时她不曾离开你的身边...
当你要找女朋友时....她在等着.......成为你的选择....
我不知道以后的路要怎样走..我只知道,我的生活根本不可能没有你的存在..你的影子,永远都留在这..我能确定的是,继续爱你,是我生存的力量...

gather with two of my best fren in my life..

in redbox toilet lol~~

in redbox...winx..me and wynki.

the curve nice view..

this is a very happy day with two of my best fren...we staying inside the curve...redbox..

we sing a lot fo songs..lol,,traning our voice..

but this redbox is sucks!!!!

3 plate of nuts and snacks...RM24 in total...

i buy outside 1 big pack only RM2.50 most expensive!!!

brainless redbox!!!go green box next time...

redbox no brain de..eat ppl money like hell...

some more the songs there not good.sing until half will lag de...

service oso not good some more charge so high..be careful i go and complain ar..

then we walk around the street in the curve..

the night view there really nice...
such a happy day for me actually...

having our dinner...so hungry..i ate my plate of rice myself..haha..



my background wo..

but duno y..as i reach home..at night b4 i sleep, i cried...

i stil cant let go my ex bf..i used my heart to love him truely.. i even treat him as my marry target.

but for him..he juz love me cos got feel with me, felt sweet to be with me. now not sweet anymore then no feel anymore...

he is a very good guy..i know tat.but he not enough mature in love.
he duno what is love..cos loving a ppl, not only talking bout feel.. if feel come easy go easy, thats not love...

13may2008 in pirates cafe with old fren

having a drink with a very old fren in the Pirates Cafe..his name is Tern..

i think..we have nvr meet for one year ady...

he is oways busy with his work..now some more become an actor in malaysia.

haha...wish him all the best lo..

this is my banana boat o!! hehe..

me and wynki

this is Tern...handsome ler~~~

2nd day of L@nGKaWi TriP (continued 4)

this is the last night and last activity for us in the Langkawi...BBQ.

actually quite reluctant to leave there...this vacation is too short for us..

not enough to play at all...haha...next time muz play more days.

at the terminal ferry we were. see our luggage?haha...too much o...heavy until we cant move if without the troli...
all my chocolates~~

this is what we have bought from there...haha..now i eat until sore throat o!!

2nd day of L@nGKaWi TriP (continued 3)

our big gang's pic in the petronas...

nice mirror..

bad mirror...
wahaha...this is our story in the petronas!!

呜谢:

Presented by:

Grace

Wynki

Peiwen

photographer:

Diamond