10月30日 : 夜晚 : 晴天 :

今天是万圣节.. The Halloween~

万圣节本该是个恐怖的节日.

可是我今天的心情, 却真的很好..

因为我感觉到自己被在乎..

有个人, 真的了解我的感受..

就算我不再告诉他我在想什么.

就算我一直试着隐瞒, 什么都不说,他也能知道.

那照片..换了.

我一直担心的事, 因为他那小小的一个动作, 消失了.

我不知道自己已经陷了多深..

我只知道, 我真的很在乎..

也很珍惜他为我做的. 就算只是那一点小事..

今天的我,知道了这事后, 真的是笑了一整天.

我想, 就算等下我睡着了,都会笑吧~

等他, 是值得的.

^_^

那是种什么样的心情?

我总是说自己很容易就会满足...

是的...偶尔吧...就在他对我关怀备至,安慰我的时候..

我总会对自己说,这样就很够了...我就可以笑起来了..

可是........为什么我会那么的固执?

解释,是可以让我释怀的...但,当我看到...那张照片总是出现在我眼前..

每次我都会伤心...

对的,只能是伤心,不是被伤害.因为当别人没有意伤害你,而你觉得受伤了,那不算伤害...

我的心..乱了....

我分不清,我该为解释而开心,还是为照片而伤心.

我的情绪很起伏不定....

是不是,我早就不应该选择等一些不知道是不是属于自己的东西?

是不是我一直都错了?

我说了多少次的放弃?为什么我就是没有办法做到?

我.....到底怎么了?

我什么时候..那么会吃醋了?

真是好笑...我有什么资格?有够笨!!!!!

Happy Halloween~~~~

went to tbr with my frens again for lunch...

and i got this pic hahaha~~~~

ini tbr stall punya tauke, tak ada business, duduk sana read newspaper o...hahaha....

----BOON PING----

After the lunch, we went to jusco and had a walk b4 we continue for our class.

and there we found a lot of halloween masks...so cute~~

we tried on a few and...PICS TIME!!!

this 1 quite scary de..not nice o...

cant beliv i took such a pic to make myself ugly haha~

but sometimes ugly also good geh~~

wahaha~ at least got meisim accompany me play ar..ugly once in the blue moon also syok ~~

I WISH THE WORLD..HAPPY HALLOWEEN.

AND I WISH...

someday, i could go for a real halloween party...

i really wish to.....

心情差得很....

我不知道小时候发生过什么事,我总是很害怕一个人的.

我很少对人说这件事,我偶尔也会试着一个人去某些地方或做某些事,因为我一直很努力的在克服..

可是今天...我真的快哭了出来....

因为..上课的时候, 我被丢下一个人了.

今天我迟了些去上课,去到的时候几乎都坐满人了..

我想找个比较多空位的地方坐,因为我最近上课都和一班朋友一起坐的.

我只看到一排比较空的位子,就走了下去想坐.可是当我走到那时才发现有人把书包放在那了..

我以为是别人放的,我看到"他"坐在那排位子的前面,看了我一下就转头了.

我随便找了位子,然后新里不断祈求着等下我朋友来了,反正都没位了他们应该会分开坐吧,就随便一个陪我坐.

可是当他们来到是,"他"居然响着他们举起手,示意"他已留位给他们.

然后...就全部都走下去,坐在那些已放了书包的位子.原来那些位子是"他"霸占的.

而他,应该知道我每次都和他们坐啊.为什么就要我一个人坐?

我真的很怕一个人的.....

我差点哭了出来.

我怕被人丢下的感觉...他却让我再次尝试这样的感觉.

平时和他话也没两句了.他见谁都笑的,就是见到我很像很不开心的样子.

我没得罪他啊...为什么要我尝试我遗忘拉很久的恐惧感?

我不喜欢他.....不喜欢不喜欢!!

1 october 2008..in JOGOYA!! yeah~~

u know why i was wearing like dis? cos im birthday gal ma..muz be special..i know my "sisters" sure all wear very sexy and attractive de, i most short and most no stature de, so ma wear a bit fashion but not sexy lo haha~ i wear like 80年代 de ppl haha..not bad ma..

let me introduce this...the toilet of starhill..haha~ wear so nice cos wana take pic in starhill lo~ high class o that toilet..if my house toilet also so nice i sure sleep in toilet haha...


CHIANG CHIANG!!!!
start drinking liao...in jogoya!!!
nice place it is...oh my god..im gonna be a very fat gal after that day..
cos i saw so many delicious food!! all are my favourite..
cant control myself u noe...


as u all know...u onli always saw 1 of my sis appeared in my blog geh...this is another 1 lo..she so busy ppl lai de..so many job...wan date her wana make appointment de ler.. haha~ last time i wan book her during christmas need to book a year b4..wakaka~ jk jk..she sure out if got time geh.. she so pandai enjoy life ar...

haha this 1...no need to intro liao...(shaking head) almost every blog also got her face inside geh.. haha~

the following pic....are all pic that i took,with a bet of my life in danger haha.

cos....when i was taking pic there, a waitress scold me. she said "food are not allowed to take pic". but puiyee said she saw a lot of ppl thr holding their camera and taking pic in front of those food counter ar...not fair..oni im the 1 being scold...

delicious ler..wana go eat anot? haha~

after eating, we walked around inside the starhill...then take pic lo...this sor poh...hehe. posing and let us take pic lo~~ so syok. everybody wearing so nice dat day. took a lot of pic.

i was really having a very happy day with them although really spent a lot and tired for that day. but when im writting this blog..my mood is so bad..maybe i cant bring out the feel that i want to show...but in fact, really thanks for both of my sis, for accompany me and celebrate my early birthday with me. love u both so much..dont ever try to leave me in my life. u both are in the prison of my life, no way out!