烦恼的一天

真想知道...那些到老都那么恩爱的夫妻,是怎么做得到的? 在一起久了..话题不会少吗? 没有一方会不小心被冷落了吗? 怎么他们都可以那么的恩爱?真羡慕...是不是我不够了解他呢? 还是分隔太远,总会有些距离的? 我们最近的话题好少哦....... 好想告诉他我很想他..可是........没有机会...他都很像很忙的.而且我们谈得越来越少,突然和他说这个,好像很奇怪欸...
现在都没心情温习了....都在想他...想发简讯给他又不懂该说什么.....

我的一个回忆不见了

在我的生命里,每一件发生过的事情,无论是开心或不开心,我都会把它收藏在脑海深处,变成我的回忆..可是最近,我发觉,我的一个回忆..那主角很像消逝了..手机,很像没有回应..msn一年没见到动静了..直到最近,当我无意间到我的friendster邮箱里,看回旧信息时....我才发觉..他不见了!!连他的friendster户口他也都删除了..好夸张哦!!就算再怎么忙,怎么想逃避某些事,也不至于要人间消失吧?这反而让我觉得害怕,担心他是不是出事了...所以,他给我的回忆,也随他不见了.总觉得好奇怪....他该不是这样的人啊..

我好害怕....好害怕...

我曾经很天真地想过,只要我很爱很爱一个人,全心全意地爱..就算两个人分开很远, 很远..距离都不会是问题.
我对你的爱, 真的没有减少过.依然还是一样, 甚至...爱到快要无法自拔了. 每一次和你讲电话,和你见面,在一起,我觉得上天对我是多么的好,让我这么的幸福...可是老天给我的礼物,为什么那么的若有若无?
每次你说要来找我, 我都觉得好开心好开心...但当你要来的时候,问题就开始不断地出现了. 第一次,是住宿问题..你来找我,要住朋友家,麻烦了你朋友,我真的觉得很内疚.很难得事情解决了.
现在,却是交通问题.你来找我,我本来很开心...可是你搭车下来..我也ok啊...要我去车站载你,我还以为...是我家附近的. 可是...你却说是pudu station的.我从来没有去过,认路也很差,这你该很清楚.可是却要我去...
就算我真的会去,我一个人驾车,还在夜晚..父母会担心啊..如果父母去载你,又害怕会麻烦..你我都不想...
我觉得...我真的很差劲.男朋友老遥远地来找我,我居然连去车站接他的本事都没有,我真的好笨!好蠢!好没用!!
我每次都好害怕,我们会因为这些问题而分开....我很怕失去你.....我真的很怕....
为什么连一点小事我都做不好?为什么我就不能为你做一点事?为什么我...这么的没用??
我越来越觉得...我很不配当你的女朋友....给你太多太多的麻烦...
每次的问题,都会牵涉到我父母的想法..在家人和你之间....被夹着做人,真的很难受...
可是你对我很重要...我真的不知道该怎么办....只好偷偷的..躲在房里哭.....
我真的不想失去你,可是为什么总觉得...你会离开我?我真的很没有信心......却又不知道怎么开口对你说...

我会试着解决...试着和家人商量...但.....我不知道答案会是什么,可是我希望你能谅解我......因为你说过要我对这感情有信心. 我真的很努力地去相信..有距离的感情...结果会是怎么样?

yoyoyo~~~

2day my fren bring me around mid valley there to try indian food! u know...when 1st i sit down..im so excited cos my fren told me there's only 1 type of food inside there, everyone there is eating the same thing.

then..the waiter serve us with banana leave at 1st.im wondering what delicious food will be on it.

but when the waiter came...wow!! i get shock...everything they serve onto the banana leave.. i have never seen!! there're all kind of things with different colours...

i was thinking...how im gonna eat that? it looks like so strange...like things that cant be eaten... the only normal food on the leave is...white rice...hahaha~~ but when i start to try every food on that...it tasted not bad...

hmm.....it is quite delicious after i start eating. 5 of us, 1 indian 4 chinese....haha only meiwen cant finish it cos cant stand with that kind of strange food. we all finish it!! anyway..thanks joshua and timothy brought me to eat something i never try b4...^_^ if got new nice food tell me o~ im sure try geh~

when im planning to sleep..i saw my fren's blog (cbox)..so angry!!!

Why everytime i also get angry with my fren's ex bf? cant he let me stay as what we are before? i seldom quarrel with wynki de...but he did let us quarrel for once! make me damn angry...
now they broken, i talk for my fren, fight for my fren. cos i dun wan to let him hurt her. and my fren told me she wan kek sei him, wan fite with him cos wan him to say sorry. but now seems.. everyone in the cbox also saying that im the one who adding chocoal to let them fite. they wan to close case.
im the one who wrong again? i just do what my best fren wish. she wan him to say sorry!!! so i do for her. but im now the wrong one..maybe.....is it i shouldn't be so concern about their thingy? maybe should be as her frens all said, let themselves settle? ok...then i will never say a word about them anymore. dont ask me opinion wynki....im really desparate now...i hate to be too protective now. i hate myself. im wrong in doing anything for my best fren. so i dont wan to hav true fren anymore. i thought last time i dont beliv best fren is my own sucks thinking. but now i know...that time im not the wrong one.human being should be selfish to protect themselves better than any other....i should learn to protect myself better than any other too...

I WILL SHUT UP FOR YOUR CASE FOREVER!!!! DONT FIND ME!!!!! FIND YOUR FREN~~~

gambateh ya hubby!!

hubby u really so sayang me o...everytime i say want anything also u get for me de. ^_^ i know im really a bit too much to ask u come KL find me more times...cos it is really wasting your petrol money..but i really miss u a lot ma..now u gonna go for interview and study so hard there but i cant be at your side help u massage massage..so guilty o~ owe you 1st la hehe..these days i quite busy editing my blog layout and also my frenster. some more the msn cant online really so sad. cant cam cam with hubby. =(
nevermind tomorrow im going out for movie with my classmates, go happy happy. of cos i wont forget to pray hard for your interview la.support u forever! must get job, earn much much money!! love love ya... =P

my life's weather always change according to you.

everytime u find me,im so happy cos i know u miss me, but when u go out with your frens and just say sorry bye bye, i will suddenly feel like...u find me just because u are boring, when your frens have time for u, then u will be away from me. i know i think too much, but... i dont know what to do.
maybe because u go out too much with ur frens, and when i only hav the time to see u then u said u already date with frens..this is what i care.
but i never can complain and be angry with u, cause i know im the one who have the problem. i cant go travel with u, cant go penang to find u due to my family's rules. im the one that never have the right to complain anything. so i just be quiet always...
everytime also my fault.having a bad family also my fault. i can only keep it deep in my heart. maybe im scare to lost u..distance is really a big problem for a couple,especially for me. i dont want to be like dat................................i dont want............